Want to make God laugh?
Tell him your plans!
I remember reading that on a license plate cover once and thought it was very clever, and very fitting to my life today. Jeremy and I had plans to have 3 kids. No more, no less. We decided not to make any permanent decision in case we changed our minds later. After a couple years I decided I was very happy with our 3 children, and told Jeremy I thought we should make some plans about keeping it just the three children. A couple weeks later we found out we were expecting number 4!! Two girls, two boys, perfect! Isaac had some health issues as an infant and I was certain I didn't want to deal with this again in the future. I had an appointment, but the day I was supposed to go I found a lump on Isaac's neck. (this in combination with many other symptoms freaked me out, so I didn't show up to my appointment so we could get blood work done on him ASAP) Well, what do you know, here comes little Nahshy! God is funny the way he makes things happen! 5 kids! Wow! Lots of fun, lots of work. We're done. Jeremy went to the doctor. All is good. Come middle of September I'm having headaches. Really bad headaches. I can't figure out what's causing them. Then I start getting nauseous. I figure it must be from stress. (I had been nursing exclusively, so I had no reason to suspect anything) Went shopping with Genna at Target, walked past the baby isle, and it hit me like a ton of bricks! GREAT GOOGLY MOOGLY!!! Here comes number 6! Jeremy said he always had a feeling that there was one more coming. I had a dream many months ago that we would be blessed with another daughter, but in my dream I was told she'd be coming when I was 32. At this point all I can do is laugh. Who am I to tell God what I'm going to do? Clearly God has other plans for this family.
I do have to say though, that this one is somewhat bitter sweet. I'm AMAZED (and shocked!) that we have been blessed again, but it does make me wonder why us when there are other wonderful people just trying to have one. I have seen people near and dear to me struggle and go through so much pain in their quest to be a parent, and it really seems so unfair. I suppose I can think of other areas in my life where we haven't been as blessed as others and I guess I could argue that doesn't seem fair either. Ultimately, it comes down to trusting that God knows what he's doing and he does everything for a reason.
The kids are stoked. I finally told them this morning. Jeremy's mom has been super supportive, which really makes a world of difference. I hope my family can be as happy as the kids and as supportive as my mother-in-law.
In addition to this big news, Jeremy and I have decided to send me back to school. He just can't make up his mind about what he wants to do, and I'm not going to push him to go to school if he doesn't want to go. There is no point in that. What he wants is to be able to have more time with the kids. I want to get a degree, it's something I've always wanted. So, I will take one class on-line for winter quarter. Take off spring quarter for the baby, and take another on-line class in summer quarter. I only have about 6 classes that need to be taken on campus, but 4 of them are science classes that must be taken in order. Currently our plan is for me to take my classes in the evening, and Jeremy will cut back on his hours at night at the restaurant, but still work for the glaziers in the day. If/when I get accepted to the nursing program, he will only work at the restaurant, and will stay home during the day and home school the kids! I will get my degree, and he will get the time with his children that he's been wanting for 7 years. It will no doubt be a hard couple of years with some serious penny pinching, but I really believe it will put us in a position to move forward with our family, and give Jeremy the opportunity to search out what he wants to do with his life. He can't do that if he has to be the sole provider for our family. I know it might sound crazy to some, but our family works well together, and I know we can do this.
Of course that last part of our plan will be determined by if that's what God wants for us, but right now I feel really good about all of it.